Things:

-          I actually got up early today, and actually got to school on time.

-          I took a unit final in math first period, but I feel like I aced it because I knew everything really well. If I get less then a 70, I’ll off myself.

-          I got an 83 on a science unit final. My teacher says I’m a really bright girl and he told me that I should be in Science 10. LOL how about no.

-          This afternoon I got an eyelash stuck in my eye but I couldn’t get it out, so I got frustrated and took a nap. When I woke up my eye was burning so bad, and it was red and gross and leaking. Visine to the rescue!

-          Spencer offered me his extra ticket to August Burns Red tomorrow night sooo I guess that’s what I’ll be doing! I’m actually really stoked. I’m going to try and get my camera in, for obvious reasons. I’m really scared and nervous about that, though. I am sure I’ll get over it.

-          I am fucking broke right now. Like.. sdkjglsdkgg. $2.39 to my name. I’m going to have to lend money from my dadskis and promise to pay him back, I guess, because I have a lot of shit coming up that I need money for. Not to mention I need to find money so I can buy hairdye so I can fix my hair. It’s starting to look kinda gross. I feel really bad though because he gave me 600 dollars and told me to get a job so it would always be there. OOPS.

-          Speaking of getting a job.. I’ll get on that like pronto. I just keep getting distracted.

-          Travis is an asshole. Capital asshole jones. No respecto for you comrado. I talked to April today and I miss her.

-          Kristy’s birthday is may 4^th.

-          I think that’s it for now.

-          (:

I don’t feel as expressive and bubbly as I did yesterday. I think it’s mostly because I haven’t napped, I haven’t had anything filling to eat, I’m lazy, I’m broke and cranky because tomorrow isn’t going to be as neato as I thought it would be. I hate it when people are snotty and selfish, and I hate it when good friends turn into acquaintances and then turn into just another face you see once or twice a day by coincidence but don’t think anything of it. I know I don’t deserve too much, but I would really appreciate some feeling from someone.

Well, I got out of the shower not too long ago after sobbing horribly about the blue from my hair going down the drain. I used shampoo on my hair for the first time in about 10 days. Gross, I know. But it seemed like a good idea for a while.. aka a couple of days, until my hair started to feel like strips of wax. I showered, obviously, but I was silly enough to only rinse it as quick as possible, slap on come conditioner and then rinse again. In cold water. I didn't want to scrub the color out of my hair. I'm over that, now, though. I gave it a scrub with shampoo today, and although it got everywhere and it seemed like all of it came off, I don't think it faded too much. I blow dried my hair in the dark because I didn't want to see it when I first got out of the shower, I was too scared. Ahahah. I turned on the lights and peeked in the mirror and it didn't look too different from the last time I had washed it. Buuuut I still dislike and therefore shun shampoo. I smell nice, though, thanks to it. No redeeming qualities. I hold grudges. Grr.

I've stayed home from school the past two days. I woke up with a hay fever on tuesday, which was obvious hell to deal with. I felt like I was allergic to everything. I spent half of the day trying to sleep. Laying in bed, listening to relaxing music, trying to keep my mind off of my nose which felt like it wanted to remove itself from my face. ): Today I feel better, but still really fatigued. School is so stressful for me, so I decided that it'd just be best to avoid it. My mom apparently got a call from the school. They complained to her about my lack of turning in assignments to math. I have no comments on that, except that it sounds like bullshit to me. Fuck math. Fuck it good. Atleast she knows that it's basically in my genes to fail at math. Both her and my dad aren't the brightest when it comes to that subject.

Recently I've been going through a lot of stupid stress over stupid crap that I shouldn't be so stupidly worried/stressed/upset over. Sometimes, people aren't worth the time you want to devote to them. When you finally realize it, I guess it's best for you to turn your own tables and get out of that situation. I guess that's exactly what I'm going to do. Last week, I was the happiest I've been in a really long time, thanks to my best friend in the entire world coming to stay with me for a while. She definitely has a way of cheering me up in a way that I'm pretty sure no one else can. Anyway, being so happy or whatever, and still being able to smile about it now, it's been a lot easier for me to move on! Sorry I'm being so vague to whoever else might be reading this, it only kind of makes sense in my head. But! Nonetheless, I've been building walls all around me to keep out the bad things and shitty people and their shitty influences that I don't want in my life, atleast right now. That means ignoring phone calls, text messages, instant messages, nexopia messages, avoiding conversation, etc. It's kind of a blank way to deal with things, and it doesn't make much sense, nor is it really effective, but at this point I don't quite know what else my options are. Sometimes, specimens of the male race are not worth any attention and mind time at all. Get out of my head, quit talking to me, quit trying to redeem yourself. You have tortured me enough, thank you very much! I mean, fuck, what kind of sad piece of shit have I turned into!? I listen to Paramore, I feel sorry for myself, I don't like to leave the house. LKGJIOSFUSOFJNHSPODFJSPFJSOFIHSOFJ.

... Enough of that shit. COUGH, HACK, FUCK!

I guess I failed to mention that this is my fourth livejournal account in a year. Sometimes, I suck at updating, and then when I go back and want to write something, I feel uninspired because it seems like I have a month or so to catch up on. So I just decided to get another and start fresh... again. My old ones are pretty entertaining to read, though. It's weird to read things written by the person I was two months ago, nine months ago, eleven months ago, and so on. So I'm making an oath to myself to keep this one going at a regular speed for AT LEAST the next couple of months. At least to the beginning of summer break. I'm sure I've said this every single time ... but whatever. The username to this new account is pretty dry, it's the title of cancer bats' new album and their “SMASHING NEW SINGLE”. So yeah, kind of lame. Raymond called me Hailey Destroyer once, and it's been in the back of my head since, so that's probably where I got the idea from.

Anyway, so many things have happened to me lately that I don't even know where to start. Last week was probably the most eventful week of my life, and I'm still basking in happiness from it for the most part. April got her & I press passes for taste of chaos so we could shoot for Avenged Sevenfold at the Calgary show (4/19) and the Edmonton show (4/22). If I started to explain all of the things that happened, I wouldn't be able to stop and this entry would turn into a 16 page autobiography of an entire week. So I'll cut it really really short:

My mom drove me down to Calgary, and we met April and her dad at the bus station. After that, we drove around for a couple hours before heading over to the Axe music store for a signing with Brian and Zack. We met up with Lisa and Taylor there, got some shit signed and a picture with the boys which is a big LOL. Later on, the show went smoothly, and we each got some amazing shots. I was so proud of my 50mm lens for giving me some of the best results. That night, we drove home before the snow storm hit all of the southern half of Alberta and made it home just after 4am. The Edmonton show was great, too. It felt a lot more comfortable to be in a more familiar place with more familiar faces. Saw lots of pals, made new friends with people in the crowd. Got even more amazing pictures and plenty of acknowledgment from the gentlemen on stage, particularly Brian.

I think that's all I'm going to write about that whole thing for now. The pictures that I took can be found on my flickr photostream (I bought myself a pro account, yay!) which is flickr.com/photos/haileyjellyfish/. One of these days I'll write a big thing about the events of last week. Hopefully I can remember as much as possible, because it was definitely a gooder. Blah blah blah.

So yeah.. it's good to be back to livejournal. I actually missed it. I've already joined tonnes of new communities and whatnot so... everything's good!